well, gotta surprised this morning. before i slept last night, i prayed "Thee, if he is my soulmate, then let him join my dream" and triiinggg.. he was in my dream. it was totally random. because in my dream, i was in the car with lex. it likes we were going to watch movie. then lolita came and hit lex in front of my face. he yelled at him and said "you are gay". lolita came to me and say "i will catch you till the end". the dream end up when lolita kissed me. sweet huh? but in real, it was totally suck.
i fight over and over again with lolita till my tears can not fall down anymore because it feels empty
"habis sudah air mata sang kekasih" - Glenn Fredly
i dont know. i really dont know. he is nice, like he is a perfect one but still, why we still keep fight each other? i talked with susan as soon as possible and she said that "minta pacar berubah karena lo ga suka sama dia itu namanya selfish. elo harus buat dia ngerti alesannya, dan biarin dia berubah sendiri karena dia mau berubah. lo cuma bisa bisa ngasih saran, tapi dia yang ambil keputusan"
but susan didnt know, we have talked this one over and over again until we get tired of it.
having a relationshitship is like you have to accept bad and good times. but it is like the worst one. he gets more emotional and said break up. he said love is not like this. and he doesnt know if he really loves me or not. love is unpredictable. he says love then he is not.
Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
